I need advice.

i been wondering a lot lately and i been thinking a lot lately about the things ive done seen you do and the things youve said to me. maybe youre not over her. maybe you got a little more love to give to her. maybe you gotta little more fight left in you for her. cause im not in this to get my heart broken, but girl i put myself on the line. i know you never intended to hurt me. i know you never intended for it to go this deep for me. you showed me a whole new life, a whole new me, a whole new way to see the unknown. the great loving, the great jokes, the great talks. but maybe she gave you greater loving, greater jokes, greater talks. maybe you gotta little more fight left in you for her. maybe you got a little more love left in you to give to her. maybe you're not over her yet. not just yet ... thought i could be the one to change thangs all around. thought i could be your wonderwoman. thought i could be the one to treat you the right way. but maybe you want her to change thangs all around. maybe you want her to be your wonderwoman. maybe you want her to treat you the right way. and the thought of this is killing me. cause i'm giving you my all, my soul, my mind, my body. take it all, i won't ever forget you. but maybe you haven't forgotten her. maybe you need to dive in a little deeper into her soul. explore her mind just a little longer. take her body on an unknown journey. maybe i been a fool to think i could get someone as loving as you. someone as real as you. someone as thoughtful as you. someone who just don't want me. i know you don't wanna break my heart. you think i'm a gentle litte woman. just wanting to be saved. but i'm strong, i'm tough. my greatest gift will be my biggest downfall i know baby. but maybe just maybe you're not over her.. love her a little more ... fight for her a little more ... give her your all ... just a little more...

but im a fighter, and i never had anything like this before. i don't wanna hurt myself, i dont wanna dig a hole too deep i cant fight my way out. i won't give in. maybe its too early to tell, maybe we need more time together. maybe you need less time apart. i put up a great front in the beginning rite, ha .. thought i was all tough. knew deep down inside i was feeling some type of way. i'll show you im a fighter, i can work this own my own. i just need a little you sometimes.. more like all the time ...

when you're suppose to be happy, why do you just sulk? i'm in a great relationship, she doesn't do anything wrong, shes always there. yet i'm scared as hell, and i don't know how to be happy. and i don't know...

Is anything really better than the unexpected? Why do we plan things out? Where is the thrill in the hunt? I mean, life is all about a little curiosity and fear. When things get rough, why do we back down? We didn't come this far, just to come this far. Now a days, I understand why I grew this tough skin. I'm afraid and tired and vulnerable. I can't help my emotions. I let them run free. Because, in life our emotions are all we truly have. ... ughe3rtyjk,ijmngbgfvdsr4t5yjuhngbfvde adios

Lay your head on my shoulder ...

... it'll be alright in the morning.

I've been super busy. With school, work, practice and extra extra curricular craziness. What's up world? Or blogger world? I've been great. Freaking awesome. I never knew someone so tired could be so happy. I'm just having a good moment. And to be honest, I'm taking it all in. It's been years in the making. Everything ain't dandy, not down to a T. But I mean, it just fits. I'm going thru a lot of changes. I love them, I don't mind. I'm just a little nervous. I don't know what to do there. But I'm following my gut, as I always do. And I will continue to do. Well my hand hurts. Back to the english homework.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!! (2/23)

signing out.